pep talk time :D

I know for a fact that alot of my watchers here are new and didn't watch me at my previous account cyanfreak. My older watchers are going to recognize a lot of which I have to show in this journal.
 2011


 2012

I know for a fact that I am just a beginner and that I have very little grasp of art, but I know that if I keep at it then someday I will be so much better.
2011 is the year I stopped using brushes for everything and began to draw and paint my backgrounds instead. I knew nothing about anatomy and shading was all one layer cell shading done too quickly. In 2012 I finished nothing. I knew nothing about colour and nothing matched at all.  I still need to cover and work on manythings and expand my topics.

I made this journal as an answer to many of the ones I read that belong to my watchers.  Ones that are written by those of you who doubt yourself way to much and do not believe that their art could ever become or amount to anything other then "failed attempts" at some near perfect image in their mind. I don't think anyone who calls them self an artist ever started out being able to do exactly what they imagine. There are many mistakes to be made before you do something right and even then there are still mess up.  If you look up to someone who is better then you and then rate yourself you of will never feel any better. Art isn't easy and its nothing you can learn over night or in a year,it takes a whole life time.

In school I wrote about one of my favorite artists named Hokusai. If you don't know the name you may have seen some of his works such as The Great Wave off Kanagawa. It looks like this upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia… Hokusai's other art is very good as well, but I think most people are going to know his great wave the best. I am about to go completely of track so I will try and stop myself as much as possible.
The main point of this journal is to bring emphasis to the point that art is a life long effort and that you can't let yourself get down.  Yes, there are people out there who might be better then you but in time you will get better. Just keep at it and work as hard as you can. Study and try new things. If you keep doing the same old thing and it doesn't work for you try something new. Take a step back and see what you can do to make it better. Challenge yourself and leave your comfort zone. Don't be afraid of failure because chances are it will come.Expect the best and prepare for what may happen and just let it be. 

I want to leave you with this, a quote from Hokusai: "From around the age of six, I had the habit of sketching from life. I became an artist, and from fifty on began producing works that won some reputation, but nothing I did before the age of seventy was worthy of attention. At seventy-three, I began to grasp the structures of birds and beasts, insects and fish, and of the way plants grow. If I go on trying, I will surely understand them still better by the time I am eighty-six, so that by ninety I will have penetrated to their essential nature. At one hundred, I may well have a positively divine understanding of them, while at one hundred and thirty, forty, or more I will have reached the stage where every dot and every stroke I paint will be alive. May Heaven, that grants long life, give me the chance to prove that this is no lie"  (this was from my paper and I am trying to locate the original source)